Feel really blue.
I'm so lonely in the day. Our flat is freezing. I have no money. I feel helpless. My life is passing me by in a blur of inactivity. Years are being wasted hiding away and being too scared to do anything out of my comfort zone. What a waste of a life.
Things should hopefully improve next year. I have to wait for my Debt Relief Order to be discharged before I can earn any proper money, until then I'm a little bit trapped. There are so few jobs around, and because my criteria are specific, it arrows it even more. I can't claim any benefits because I live with my boyfriend and we're classed as "married" in the eyes of the DWP. We don't have enough money to feed ourselves. I may have to move back with my mum and dad for a few months so that I can at least claim Job Seekers Allowance and have something. Trouble is, they live 200 miles away from here, and I'm sure my dad would hate the idea... I'm like a bad penny that keeps coming back! My mum would love it.
((hugs))
ReplyDeleteI totally empathise with how you feel Jenny. Please be happy that you do have the company of your boyfriend. Even when things feel like the pits you have one another and that transcends all. x
I can't believe that you're not entitled to any benefits at all! If you're restricted regarding work then this ought to be recognised surely? Incapacity benefit or lower rate DLA? Can you seek advice? It would be awful to think of you having to move from your relationship because of finances. So sorry you're blue. You're not a bad penny. Life just doesn't go the way we would want it sometimes despite our best efforts. Being anxious is not your fault nor are the circumstances occur because of it. You have come so far!
Sending much love and warm wishes. Hope things improve for you very soon. x x x
Thank you so much sweetheart, you've cheered me up on this dull, damp morning.
ReplyDeleteI must try and get out of the flat today, I'm sure it amplifies my sadness in these four walls!
xxx