I drove over my friends house on Friday night. I was a little nervous but I knew I had to do it. It was fine. We had a really fun evening with lots of wine and old photos.
Driving home with a hangover was not fun at all. It was boiling hot and I felt wobbly! It seamed to take forever and I kept telling myself to stay calm. I got home and I'm proud of myself.
I've agreed to go to Italy in 4 weeks. Fuck. They really want me to go and I'd had a few and agreed to borrow the money off of Clare. Part of me wants to go, the other part tells me what if I am anxious, or want to come home, or have a panic attack, or look like a beached whale etc etc...
Monday, 24 May 2010
Friday, 21 May 2010
Better today
Feeling much better today.
I think the TOTM may have made an appearance so hopefully all that angst and anxiety will be on it's way out now.
I AM going to drive over to my friends house this evening. I will not let anxiety stop me.
Will let you know how I got on.
I think the TOTM may have made an appearance so hopefully all that angst and anxiety will be on it's way out now.
I AM going to drive over to my friends house this evening. I will not let anxiety stop me.
Will let you know how I got on.
Thursday, 20 May 2010
Ramblings...
It's been a while!
I'm feeling a little odd today. I am most definitely anxious. I guess on the scale of 1-10, I am at level 4!
I have been cooped up in these four walls all week, and have only been out 3 times, for me this is not good at all. I have nowhere to go, and no money. I'm lonely and I'm fretful. I have terrible PMT, so maybe this is the main reason I feel out of sorts?
I have to join a temp agency asap and I cannot currently muster the strength to arrange the appointment, go in and talk to them, and then actuallly go to the job! I feel very stressed about the whole thing.
I have been getting nasty palpitations for the last 6 months (whether anxious or not) and my sensible side knows that they are nothing to worry about, but my nutty side keeps planting thoughts of heart trouble.
Today really is an off day. I'm doing that deep sighing thing all the time- where you feel like you can't get enough breath into your lungs.
I think I need to get out for a while. Maybe I'll brave a walk to the seafront (oh yeah, I moved AGAIN!)
I'm supposed to be driving round to my friends house tomorrow evening, it's about 25 miles away. She's just had the love of her life walk out on her and she needs me. I must summon the confidence to drive over there.
I'm feeling a little odd today. I am most definitely anxious. I guess on the scale of 1-10, I am at level 4!
I have been cooped up in these four walls all week, and have only been out 3 times, for me this is not good at all. I have nowhere to go, and no money. I'm lonely and I'm fretful. I have terrible PMT, so maybe this is the main reason I feel out of sorts?
I have to join a temp agency asap and I cannot currently muster the strength to arrange the appointment, go in and talk to them, and then actuallly go to the job! I feel very stressed about the whole thing.
I have been getting nasty palpitations for the last 6 months (whether anxious or not) and my sensible side knows that they are nothing to worry about, but my nutty side keeps planting thoughts of heart trouble.
Today really is an off day. I'm doing that deep sighing thing all the time- where you feel like you can't get enough breath into your lungs.
I think I need to get out for a while. Maybe I'll brave a walk to the seafront (oh yeah, I moved AGAIN!)
I'm supposed to be driving round to my friends house tomorrow evening, it's about 25 miles away. She's just had the love of her life walk out on her and she needs me. I must summon the confidence to drive over there.
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