Tomorrow at 1pm. It should be fine. It sounds quite casual and I've spoken to the guy on the phone and he sounded nice. So why do I feel awful? It could be just what I need. The hours are great, it sounds easy, friendly. But I feel sick and scared. I MUST do this and I will do this.
Had another victory of sorts. A friend who I haven't seen in years (since we were teenagers)came over to see me on Friday evening. We had a lovely time. I was very nervous beforehand. All the usual negative thoughts, but after 20 minutes or so I was well away and Jenny the chatterbox returned. I think I'm just out of practice- it's a skill that needs to be continually used and if you don't you become rusty, like anything else really I suppose. But it doesn't go away completely. If you were once easily able to chat away and meet new people, you haven't changed or lost the know how, you're simply out of practice. The only way to improve is to build up that sociable muscle again (that metaphor sounds all wrong, but you get my drift!!) It's in you, but again, you need time , patience, practice and determination to bring it out again. That's my feeling anyway.
Hmmm, I keep forgetting about the interview then it hits me in one big anxious wave.
