Ramblings...

It's been a while!

I'm feeling a little odd today. I am most definitely anxious. I guess on the scale of 1-10, I am at level 4!

I have been cooped up in these four walls all week, and have only been out 3 times, for me this is not good at all. I have nowhere to go, and no money. I'm lonely and I'm fretful. I have terrible PMT, so maybe this is the main reason I feel out of sorts?

I have to join a temp agency asap and I cannot currently muster the strength to arrange the appointment, go in and talk to them, and then actuallly go to the job! I feel very stressed about the whole thing.

I have been getting nasty palpitations for the last 6 months (whether anxious or not) and my sensible side knows that they are nothing to worry about, but my nutty side keeps planting thoughts of heart trouble.

Today really is an off day. I'm doing that deep sighing thing all the time- where you feel like you can't get enough breath into your lungs.

I think I need to get out for a while. Maybe I'll brave a walk to the seafront (oh yeah, I moved AGAIN!)

I'm supposed to be driving round to my friends house tomorrow evening, it's about 25 miles away. She's just had the love of her life walk out on her and she needs me. I must summon the confidence to drive over there.